Dear Dead Dead- Letter #1

Dear Dead Dad,

Wow do I have so much to tell you. But for now, I want to focus on Fathers Day.

 

How would we spend today if you were alive?

I have thought about this a lot today. I image we would be doing some sort of cookout. Steak. Potato salad. Strawberry short cake. Beer. Lots and lots of beer. I think we would be somewhere near water, either at the pool, or on a boat. maybe the beach. We’d be playing corn hole.

 

What would I have bought you?

You were probably the hardest person to shop for. I would have spent a good while picking out the perfect card for you. Equal parts serious and funny. I probably would have gotten you a set of 3 Stooges DVDs.

 

What about past Fathers Day?

I have searched my mind for past memories on this day, and I am coming up blank. Does this make me a bad person? I am sure we did something to celebrate this day but I just cant remember? During college I worked Orientation every summer which always fell on Fathers Day. Growing up you were always at work, maybe we did something at the restaurant? As a kid, did I make you anything? I feel like I should have gotten you a “worlds greatest dad mug” but you hated coffee so that wouldn’t make sense. Growing up we must of had cookouts by the pool, it may not be a real memory but thats what I am going to cling to when I think of how we might of spent Fathers Day.

 

I have so much I want to say. So much I want to know. So many questions I’ll never get answers to.

You may not be here anymore, but I am hoping these letters will make it feel, even for a minute, that you are here with me.

So much has happened, and so much will happen and I want you to know.

Until next time,

Sam

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